I hate you, so

There the feeling gets stronger than it is here.
You are not you at all;
but the perception I have of you
The castles I built in the air
Washed away
Visions of a future
‘The perfect one’
You lost it all for me
Pretending to be
What you are not
And I was to slow
To see it through
How stupid?
How silly
A wasted life
And a spiritless soul
You’ve turned me to be
I hate you
so